A million time I went through the words I wanted to put together in my texts and publish on the blog. There are no right or wrong words. Just words.
And you can´t put a life into words. No matter how many languages you use, feelings stay inside you and can´t be properly taken out. Still, we try to express ourselves and communicate.
I came to Germany in 2010. This is pretty clear to all.
At first my stay was planned for a semester, then one more year. Little by little I didn´t feel I still had a place to go back to. Probably I was just old enough not to want to go back to my parents´home, so this made me decide to keep on "living alone", but in Germany where I already was.
I really wanted to learn German. I developed this interest by the end of high school. No particular reason, but I wanted to. And I was so sure I would be doing a great move for a future employment by learning German on top of English and that little Japanese I knew.
Life goes on. No matter where you live. You meet people and make decisions. You take directions. You make steps. Small or big, steps are steps. And they take you in some direction.
I took a few steps. Hard ones.
I needed to go through it all. And at some point Life takes the lead and drives you somewhere you never ever expected to.
It probably sounds like I´m not telling anything new. I know. Ups and downs are for everyone. And I am sure there are stories even more shocking then mine. I have seen some of them myself at the hospital, too. But still, I think I have all the right to be shooked. Life hit me hard with a rock on the forehead.
Since I told you before that you can´t express all feelings with words, I´ll be short about that.
The reason why you haven´t seen me around at all the past 3 years is that I had big life issues to take care of.
First thing is, I had a baby. Taking care of a child is time and strenght consuming. So I didn´t put much effort in drawing, reading or doing anything else for myself. I dedicated my whole self to make my kid feel strong and loved.
Second thing is, the father of my little Princess spent the last bits of his life fighting against cancer.
And that tells you how much time and brain I could have had to follow up what was going on outside of our circle. I still need some time to heal my thoughts.
I have been longing for a comeback and take over what I left years ago. Since there is no real reason to get away from things I used to do, since I enjoy doing them. And honestly, I haven´t found another road that I enjoy more than this one.
Thank you for reading this blog post. Please keep following me, I promise to publish more comics related content soon. And spread the word among your friends: Siem is back!
